Friends come and go

Once I opened wikiquote.org then I entered "friendship" keyword. The site system (don't know for sure the hierarchy).Then there was a quote that I like so much. It is said that 'Good friends like stars. You don't always see them but you know they are always there'. It's nice but it's hard to find good friends.

I wanna tell you 'lil bit my story about good friends. In my 22 years of life, I've met so many people with their own characters and deep down, sometimes I don't really care about them but sometimes I can't really tolerate them (in most cases because of their behavior), but been grown up in a very simple family, I know I've got to be able to. In the beginning of friendship, sometimes I think that 'wow, this guy or this girl is nice. I think we can be good-friends and share everything. We're gonna have everlasting friendship'. or my friends claim themselves that 'they'll be beside you always. So, if you've got a problem, you can come to me and we can solve it'. Sometimes you even wanna cry because of this. But, the fact is not as nice as you dream. I ever get this case. In my very depressed condition and I was very fool, so I used to take other's sympaty, there were some friends came to me and tried to share some joys. It's no longer, I think they got bored because of my problems and pufhhhh ... they went away and got other friends. They always laugh and I don't think they ever talked about problems or sadness as big as I have. It hurted me and I was forced to face that they're gone and found the others. I used to share all my sadness and happy stories with the guy, but I think my sad stories made the guy sick, so each day he kept farther from me and finally we're away.

The point I learned here is I've got to do my best in solving my problems and not to fully hope that friends will help me. Oh yeach, I almost forget, 'till now I don't like seeing the face of guy. I think it's better to keep away from the guy. We've got our own life. I've got to face the fact that friends come and go.

Saturday Jogging

Last saturday we went on jogging. There were seven of us and I liked it. I didn't use to go on jogging since I came to Jakarta. It was different than my life style when I was in college, I used to do some exercises there, and you know why??? Because it was a must. We woke up late, we had planned that we'd start at 5 o'clock in the morning but we started at six o'clock. I guess no problem, we kept on going.

We went on jogging to Monas because it was pretty hard getting fresh air in Jakarta. I even think that 10 years later, people on Jakarta must have enough money to buy fresh air and the factory will put it in a can ... Monas still has so many trees and yeahhh ... the air is different, it's different I take breath in Monas and Sudirman. Sudirman is horrible, it's clean outside but I don't think so with the air.
We did so many things there, we run around the monument and walked around there while taking pictures. Daniel and Tinormaida were good photographers there ... because they have their own cameras. We also did some common body exercises such as skipping (do I spell it correct ?), sit-up using tools there.
Finally, we went up to the top of the monument by paying Rp.7500,00 . I thought no special things I saw from the top, I usually see it thru' my office window, I worked in 19th floor ... but that was ok, it was an experience.

Below are some pictures of us when we went on jogging ...

:: peserta jogging senen 2006

:: Ambaz di antara Ibu2 PKK Senen

:: Ketawa apa mo jogging yakkk ? rada gak jelas

:: cover perdana tabloid 'SEHAT' 2006

Happiness is closer than you think ....

I've been so busy lately. SA in my office asked me to do some changes in fish mutation (my application that I handle now). For this time, I wanna share an article that I think good enough for girls (especially for single).

Have you ever heard that expression "There's plenty of room at the top"?.

It's true in life and love - ow, everybody loves talking about love and I guess it never ends - there is always plenty of room at the top. Let's talk about why there's plenty of room at the top on love.

The reason is that so few people want - or try for -excellence.

If you doubt that for a second, just go and look around.

How many people do you see who appear to be striving for excellence in any area of their lives? Is it majority? No - and the fact is - it never will be the majority. I don't want to state bad news, and I wish that were not true - but this is a simple fact of life.

So, if you are one the rare people who DOES want more out or life, you can be sure that there is AMPLE oppotunity.

In fact, the world will MAKE WAY for you when you start that process of self-improvement and reaching for the stars.

What if you made it your goal to "go to for the top"? What if you took personal responsibility for how your times together go - never mind for now that it's a two-way street.Just decide to make it the best you can be.

Have you heard that expression "there's plenty of room at the top"?

It's true in life and in love - there is always plenty of room at the top. Let's talk about why there's plenty of room at the top in love - and for all women who want to attract men, whether you are 18 or 98.

The reason is that so few people want - or try for - excellence.

If you doubt that for a second, just go out and look around.

How many people do you see who appear to be striving for excellence in any area of their lives? Is it the majority? No - and the fact is - it never will be the majority. I don't want to state bad news, and I wish that were not true - but this is a simple fact of life.

So if you are one of the rare people who DOES want more out of life, you can be sure that there is AMPLE opportunity.

In fact, the world will Make Way for you when you start that process of self-improvement and reaching for the stars.

What if you made it your goal to "go for the top" with the man you love? What if you took personal responsibility for how your times together go - never mind for now that it's a two-way street. Forget fair. Just decide to make it the best you can be - by being the woman of YOUR dreams.

We each have an ideal woman in our mind - and we may or may not yet be that woman. Most of us are not yet that woman.

And if you did not care, you would not care enough to think about these things. You'd be living on auto-pilot. And that is not living.

There is so much "room at the top" that when you go for the "best" in even one way, you will soon see a whole new world.

You will no longer fear competition from other women, either, because you will know that no other woman can give a man what you can. No other woman can be you.

There is room at the top - that your relationships can indeed soar, and that you can soar,without taking anything away from someone else, either.

It all starts with the heart - and I'm not saying it's easy. It's not easy when things are not going well - but it takes SO LITTLE to make things start going in a GOOD direction.

It takes desire and persistence. After a while, things do start to snowball for YOUR BENEFIT. The people who want good things in their relationships WILL find what they're looking for.

Never give up!

If I were a Miss Universe Contestant ...

You must laugh when you read the title, but this is my blog ... I can write anything here and because this is me and always me. Blog is something a electric paper so the main thing is only a paper .

All these questions I took from official site of Miss Universe and I think all these questions were asked to all the contestants. I'm not one of the contestant but I think that's better than I've got to speak there and say that "Indonesia is a beutiful city" (Uhmm, sorry I mean beatiful country), may be one day I'm gonnabe rich enough to make my own city and it's called Indonesia so she's not fully wrong.

What are your interests and what do you enjoy doing the most?
I love computer because I work in that field, so to enjoy that I've got to love it. With a connecting computer you can go to whole the world thru' it.I've never been in New York but thru' Internet I know how New York is.I also love reading books especially motivational books, watching movies especially funny movies, cause they give you a lot of fun.Sometimes, I also hang-out with friends. They're awesome and you've got to realize that we can't live without them.

Name one person other than your parents who has had the most influence on your life. Why?
My special person, I think my family and friends. Because they're awesome. They'll be beside you when you have a trouble. But I don't think I'll open heart to betrayal or somethin' like hypocrite. No, I don't think so.My brother also, he's good, I know sometimes he's rough and tell a thing that I don't like but he was helping me forgetting someone who used to bothered me, not because he gave a pinch but because something that you can guess and understand even I say nothin' (I mean always come to my mind).

What is your career ambition and what are you doing or plan to do to accomplish that goal?
I wannabe an expert in my field which is IT. That's why I try to love it and work with all my heart and do my best. This field is weird for a girl, I must be so toug. In this field, most of your competitors are boys which must be stronger than girls.All the things here changes rapidly and I think each day it goes to more sophisticated things.So I've got learn and learn more and don't forget to pray.

Describe where you were raised and what your childhood was like.
When I was one and a half years, my family decided to move to Java island and started business there. I think my childhood was good and I'm quite happy. I've grown up by playing and sharing everything with my friends and I fully enjoyed them. We used to play traditional toys.I still remember them clearly and hope someday we can meet again.

How do you see yourself ten years later?
I must be me in my 32, be a real woman with a good career in IT or management. I live happily with my own family and must be kids there. I know, I work hard to achieve my career but it doesn't guarantee that I'll be happy. I wanna get married someday with man I love and loved by me, have some kids because I love kids.It will make my happy life perfect.

What makes you unique and different from the other contestants?
(Huahahaha ... this is a funny questions for me because I'm not a contestant).But, I'm gonna try to answer, I'm an independent girl, grown up in a very simple family I've got to make myself enough with the available things. Especially when my family felt hard to get daily needs I know I've got to work too, so I usually work hard to get what I want. I work hard to achieve it.

what your friends say about you?
I'm an optismistic and lil' bit tomboy.Friends say that I always look happy, I'm also a brave girl.I don't dare to take some risks, that's why some say that I'm lil' bit stubborn and I'm an easy-going person ...

who is your idol?
My idol ... well, I have a lot because they inspired me (huahahah ... like a real miss universe contestant).I think, Marrisa Mayer, she's a super woman. She's smart and great developer. In her young age (30) she's one of the big-people in Google and has given so many contribution for Google in developing the site. She's arranged her daily schedule.Next, I think Maria (Mom of Jesus) for all her patiences.She's a real great woman and I think she's pretty.

My brother's birthday ....

Yesterday, my bro's birthday and we celebrated it in a very simple celebration ... (Senen's member ...). I gave him somethin' and I hope he's gonna like it, it was difficult to find something good for him and absolutely usefull for him ...

The weird thing last night when we celebrated his birthday was there were some of them (my friend or friends think that there was something special between me and my brother). In this blog I wanna confirm it, 'yes' there is something special between me and him ... I am his sister and he's my brother, not like the other just being friends or very ordinary for me or for him. That's why he gave first cake's slice for me, because I treat him different than the others and so does he ... Somethin', what people think of me and bro make me sick, you can find another topics to be discussed or talked about than how we're close each other. I tell you why ... because it never changes even one day I've got my own family life (uhmmm with husband and baby) .I have no real brothers and I'm very thankful if someone is being there to be my brother. He's also already known about all the silly things, but he just keep on smiling and tell me ... 'don't care what people say. It's just because they don't have another thing to be talked about'. The problem might be different if the man wasn't him. The 'cie ... cie ... cie ... thing with weird sound to be said is annoying'. There must be something behind it ...

Now, let's forget about it ... and for my wishes for bro ....
Hopefully in this new age, you become more mature in all the things in your life, everything must be better especially in treating HIM. Thanks GOD for givin you another one year for livin in a HUGE green earth and another amazing year to love and to be loved by people around you.
Last, thanks also for being there as a great bro (thanks also for helping me forgeting the 'JERK') and for all the advise that sometimes I don't fully agree or even not agree at all, but when I think it twice, it's good and yup ... it's true.

That's all and love ya' bro ...

How to deal with an insane ....

Gak percuma juga gw bangun subuh-subuh banget ngalahin petugas siskamling ato sampe sewa asina (si biang bola) buat bobo di kamar gw, final piala dunia gw ikutin sampe abis walo emang dengan perjuangan panah (matanya hampir ketutup karena ngantuk)......

But actually, ada kejadian gak nyenengin ... ada temenku yang mungkin lagi mengigau dan memang kami yang nonton itu orang-orang ekspresif yang sulit sembunyiin kegembiraan ato sekedar guyon kecil2an ... biasalah biar nonton bola gak ngantuk (emang mo nonton pilem Charlie Chaplih harus diem ....?). Nach dia itu mungkin lagi ngigau ato lagi mimpi buruk (kasian banget emang kalo lagi mimpi buruk trus bobo sendiri lagi, kalo mo teriak dan ketakutangak tauk mo meluk sapa). Dia datang melabrak subuh2 itu bilangin kalo suara gw kenceng banget .... (mardomu tungkik tu nengel ....) denger dulu sapa aja yang ngomong baru kasih pendapat. emang dia udah sentimen ama gw, perasaan kita semua ributnya kompakan kok, tapi gimanalah dia rada sirik ama gw jadinya marah2nya ama gw, emang gw sempet emosi tapi pas mo bobo mikir "how can u deal with an insane man?". gak ada gunanya ... didiemin aja (kembali ke statement awal)... Udah dech gw niatin aja kalo besok dia gituin gw, gw ngeloyor aja pergi (mungkin ada baiknya kita pura-pura tuli ato gak liat) ... bodo amat dech kalo dia mo uring2an sendiri. Emang gw pikirin ... toh selama ini juga gw anggap elo gak ada. Gak ada untung ato ruginya gak berteman ama elo.Cuma yach buat ngakhirin kebegoan ini ... gw pesen ama yang merasa ... jangan anggap dirimu paling bener ... kadang baik ngaca dulu sebelum ngomong, udah pantas gak gw ngomong gitu? lagian kita gak pernah deket ato punya kenangan apa-apa. Jelasnya nich ... loe gak tau sapa gw, jadi jangan sok kenal dan kasih nasehat.Lagian loe orangnya parah juga yach, beraninya cuma ama cewek doang ... Kalo orang emang ngomong bener, gw pasti terima. Gw bukan orang bebal kok.Dan please jangan pernah nyenggol gw, karena gw juga gak pernah nyenggol situ, kalo pengen kasih khotbah ato merasa diri benar, jadi petugas sipir penjara aja sono, ntar kalo loe khotbahin para napi disana, belum selesai ngomong loe udah babak belur digebukin ama mereka.Gw kasih win-win solution aja yach ... Anggap aja kita gak pernah saling kenal dan tak akan pernah saling kenal.

Ehm ... gw gak marah lagi kok ... udahlah semuanya udah lewat ... lagian gw gak kenal ama loe dan gak pengen kenal.Cukup ini yang terakhir, jangan terulang lagi ... gw gak pengen abisin waktu percuma buat ngurusin orang gilak yang gak gw kenal. Emosi gw kmaren dipicu ama faktor biologis juga nich (bawaan cewek yang mo 'dapet') jadi mohon dimaklumin ....
Thanks banget buat temen2ku yang laen yang udah kasih saran dan penghiburan pagi kemaren ... gw inget dech pesan kalian dan ehmm bantuin gw lagi yach kalo lagi dapet masalah begini. Kalian emang ahli buat hadapin orang sarap .... hehehe .. Love ya' all ...