It's all about Friend again ... (I love it)

Friend is a topic that I'd love to talk to ...
Last night I was talkin' with my friends. It's very hard for me to go to sleep, so uhmmm we decide to talk and share some stories ... We started talkin' and finally she asked me the question that I think she's kept for a long time. I didn't think that I didn't wanna tell her but I think she must now, so she can be careful in the further day ...
All the main thing of all is "When you get trouble,sometimes you stuck there and almost find no room to breathe. Then everything will be opened in front of you and you'll know who a real friend is". She didn't know what I mean about but I explain it to her, then she became understand ... I don't know what you'll think when you read that phrase but you can agree and disagree with it. I already felt it, that's why I think of that phrase. I've got a problem, told my problems about all of those problems and then "friend" kept further each day and finally we were away and seem so know each other before.Awful ... But I learn one thing from all this things, it helps you find a real friend and when you find the friend, you'll be thank GOD and try your best to keep the friendship.That's a bullshit when a guy come to you when you're happy and tell you that we're friend but when you stuck in a problem, they keep further and further each day from you.

Just ask GOD to bless your day and ask HIM to help you to find a real friends.

14 August 2005 ...

It was one of the worst day in my life. Not because I lost something or someone, but I always remember the day when I was ignored by a guy. That was the time that I ever really fell pissed-off. A day in August when I opened my cell-phone then I saw it in a folder which contained some messages. I read it and remembered that day ... and 'till now I can never ever forget it.

Just wait the day when I'll be okay and tell you (a guy) about this, I promise this ...

I wanna go home

I really wanna go home this christmas and I hope I can do it. I don't have enough money for now and I think I'll have to save money harder than before so I can go home. This Tuesday was a shocking day for me. On Monday, I asked my boss @office to clarify our salary and our Christmas Holiday. In the beginning contract when we started new job here, he told us that once every three months, he'd increase our salary. Not significant I think, but that was good enough than nothing. After talking this thing with him, he told us that he'd let us know it as soon as possible and he'd do a mini meeting with others in the office. Okay, than we thanked him and went out of office.

Tomorrow afternoon, when I and my roommate were ready to go home, then the 'SA' called me. He told me that he'd got something to say with me.Well, that was ok and I followed him. Guess what he said. He said that the company needed to minimize the cost and the programmers, because the project was very late and he thought that it was not efficient. So, they already thought to fire one of us. And the guy was me.Because from all of the workers in the company. I was the worst.Imagine for a minute this phrase. I didn't know what he thought. There are others workers who come to office and playing game all the day, or sleeping all the day, they came very late and when the office hour has finished that day, they'd become the first who left the office. The Microsoft didn't know the company and I think sometime they laugh when there's nothing come in their mind when they hear this company name. (If Microsoft does the event and I think it's important for me and my job, I'll always be there). I've got to leave this company after 25 this month. It means after getting my salary this months. This made me shocked, but I knew and I fully realized I've got to be calm down and no tears (silly .... huh ....???).

In public bus in the way home, I thought all the previous thing which had just been happenned to me. Then the Lord Code Event came in my mind. I know I was too childish at that time that I really forced to come to see the event. It was free and It was a great opportunity to see them.I tried my best thing, I worked very late to finish the job so I could go for tomorrow. But I didn't think that they saw it. I don't wanna get people mercy when they read this blog. I just feel very dissapointed, they don't even give me one week notice so I can get another job.I pay for my sista' school fee and other fee that's needed to be paid in my home town. Oh my GOD, very Poor company, ...

Today, I've applied 4 company ... and hopefully one of them receive me as their workers (programmers) and I hope I don't get the same company with this. Oh yeach ... I almost forget this company I think is similliar with my first company. My first company has stopped office activities because of lack of money.

GOD helps me to face this and like Kid-Rocks said in their single ... Only GOD knows WHY ... so, don't ask me why.

Welcome Home You ...

This is a nice song and I really love it.I think this kinda' a Christian song ...
This is I wrote the lyrics for ya' all.

Welcome Home You
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When I left home to be who I am
Some people said "No Way"
But I laid it all down, gave everything
In my head rang the words that my father said

You're never far
I will be where you are
and when you come to me
I will open my arms

Welcome Home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face.

When I look at you holding my heart
I will give to you all that I have
Son I know there'll be times
You will feel all alone
I will share with you the words my father said

You're never far
I will be where you are
and when you come to me
You can bet I will open my arms

Welcome Home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

Said I've been waiting for that day
Just to feel your warm embrace
Your love has shown
I will never be alone
You will welcome me home

I'll forever be
You will say to me
Welcome Home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said "No Way"

Great Event ....

There's a lot of thing that I wanna tell you in this blog.During last week, everything was nice. Finally, my boss gave permission to me to go to Microsoft Event at Hotel Mulia Senayan. It's hard for my sweetest company to let us follow the event like this. It is free that they didn't event spend money. If they do like this for FREE event, so how about if we've got to spend money for an event? I think you can answer it and I know it must be correct.

Now let's talk about the event. The event is called The Lord of The Code. What thing occurs in your mind when you read the above phrase? Yes, it is a movie, Lord of The Rings. There were Frodo, beatiful fairy, Arragon (I hope I spell it well), and misterious rings. So, the room is using Lord Of The Rings Theme. All the speakers came up to the stage by holding up a sword. Hehehe .. I thought it funny. But it's ok. It ain't the main thing of the event.There were two main speakers. They flight from US. They are a part of Microsoft giant. They were Antoine Cote, the development lead Microsoft Visual Studio and .NET and the other was Jay Schmelzer(Phffff ... difficult to spell), the lead program manager of Microsoft Visual Studio .NET.The topic was good and I think this is the first time I follow event without any errors occured during the demo. When WWF Introduction event was held in Borobudur hotel, all the speakers showed error in their demos. It was so sad. From the event, I've got a lot of things to learn. By VS .NET you can minimize your code. The software already know what we need and they provide it. It's totally different that we code using VS .NET 2005 and (ehemmm .... hard to say) Old VB (VB 6.0) like I do now. When you use Adodc and then you add a field then 'a crazy error occurs right in front of your eyes'.They really made the software, so they know all the tools in VS .NET. They are also friendly. When break time, they walked around the dining room ( I called it because there was a lot of food there) then discussed or spoke or like me with my other two friends, just laughed and asked the other things out of code. People around us thought that we're crazy because we keep on talking while laughing. But, hey come on ... they are also human beings.So I think it's ok. They gave me their card name and wrote something in my note. I'm happy. I think this could be the first and the last I met them. Eventhough, one day I've got a lot of money and I travel to USA and go to Redmond. I don't think that they'll allow me to meet people like them. So this is a very good opportunity.

You can see my pictures ...

Feelin' Blue ...

Few days ago, I was hearin' a news that I don't think that I really wanna hear or know. But I know this is a fact that I must face. This is the 'n'-times I feel blue and I know and fully-realized that I can't ever forgive you. The best way for all these problems, I've got to work very hard and then get very exhausted. When I arrive at home I know I'm gonna get exhausted. Nothin' I can think than getting a shower and going to bed as soon as possible.

I always say to my friends who ever feel this that life must go on. Sometimes I act that I'm so tough, and now I think it's the show time that I've got to prove it in my own life.I've got to start my own life, fell free without thinking about it.I'll try and force myself to think that all these bad things never happens.It's all deja-vu.Just bless me GOD ...

Anyway, Do I look so depressed?

Copycat ... ?

Well, it’s hard to think that now, this month, is September 2006. It means I’ve been graduated from my last school for one year and I’ve been working for a year. Yippy ...

Finally, I’ve upgraded my cell-phone and I change it to W700i with one consideration. Nobody has it in my ‘little family’ in Senen, but guess what … after buying it then there are two people who followed me to buy the same thing. It’s really awful, I think that they’ve got no idea to purchase another thing than other people has. I ever thought to sell it again and change to another one, but lately I’ve thought to use my money to buy Personal Computer, hopefully next or two months later I can buy it. I think, I’m gonna need it.Really damn annoying ....